After a lot of prayer and discussion with Terry, I’ve decided to have the double mastectomy. I’ve read blogs and medical stuff and I’ve talked to women who have gone through or are getting ready to go through the same thing and they have all said one breast is not an option. And now I understand why. I don’t ever want to go through this again. I don’t EVER want to put my family through this again! If they are both gone then the chances of it happening again is very small. So Monday I’m going to call and get the ball rolling. To say I’m scared is an understatement. But I think things have lined up the way I needed them to in my life finally, so it’s time.
If someone tells you cancer doesn’t hurt, they’re lying! I take 800mg of ibuprofen 3 times a day and 2 Tylenol twice a day because it hurts so bad. At night after work I feel like my left boob weights 20 pounds. And if I bump it or something hits it…well just cover your ears because it’s not pretty. It’s time it get this over with.
So since I’ve made this decision, I’ve been boob shopping. If I’m going to have new ones made, I might as well get some perky ones, right!? The ones I have now are old and saggy. I would have been glad to keep them but since I can’t, I might as well get what I want right? I do have a question that I haven’t gotten a good answer too yet. Can they save the nipples? Isn’t that what makes a boob a boob? I guess if I have to I can have them tattooed on. My husband said I should have daisies tattooed there. The options are endless! Decisions decisions! Good night.