Day after.

It’s the first day after the new chemo medication just like before I’ve been on a steroid high today. I got a lot of cleaning done. OK maybe not a lot but I got some done! I’ve been busy all day working on stuff around the house and trying to get ready for Prepper Camp. A lady named EN and her husband Bob brought us dinner tonight it was Parmesan chicken salad and a dessert tray and it was really really good. Rylee insisted I call her and get the recipe! Right after dinner I started getting a really bad headache and I tried to work through it but I’m just done for the night so I’m cutting this short and I’m going to bed.

Be blessed,

Diana

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Treatment #5…

You know when they say it doesn’t effect most people in a negative way. Well I have never been “most people”! It seems this new Chemo I’m taking doesn’t make people sick like the last 2 I was taking. On top of that my doctor says he thinks I definitely have Anticipatory Nausea. He asked me what triggered the gagging and I told him the popsicle sticks left on the table at home, the smell when I walk in the building, texting with my companion about pick up time for the day. He said he can give me an anti anxiety medication, put I told him I would see what happens. But just writing about it and I’m not doing so good.

The day started with Kat picking me up at 9:30am. Kat and I met through her husband, Chris, who is in the SBH business with me. She’s very sweet but I felt bad that I felt so bad and that we were there so long! Here’s Kat and I.

She was good company and I found out we have a lot in common. That’s what makes friendship fun.

We got to the appointment about 15 minutes early and still didn’t get called back until about 10:30. But it’s because my doctor will stay with you and talk to you as long as you need him. One of the reasons I love him. He asks a lot of questions and will tell you his true thoughts on what he thinks is going on. We got back to the chemo area and choose our spot. My normal spot was take so we had to pick another spot. Rick, a new nurse came to access my port and then another nurse came to take me to see the doctor. Then off for my toxic cocktail.

My meds started out with a steroid and a stout dose of Benadryl. It was just a few minutes and I felt like I was drunk or high. My speech was slurred, I knew I couldn’t walk and the lady sitting across from me had on a geographic 3D shirt. AND then the fire alarm went off and we had to evacuate. But I can’t walk! So someone got me a wheel chair for a little butt 🙄 and I got my not so little butt in the chair and out the door we go. Everyone from the office, all doctors, nurses and patients went out back to the shade because most of the meds dripping into our bodies can’t get hot. I over heard someone say that anyway. We were out there about 20 minutes and it was over. I guess someone said they could smell smoke so they had to act on it.

Back inside and I’m just not feeling good. It was almost like motion sickness or morning sickness. Most of the time I’m just on the verge of throwing up. Then came the new chemo and it was going to take 3.5 hours to complete. I forgot to take my Restless Leg Syndrome Rd before I got there and my legs were going nuts. Then Madison tells me the Benadryl will heighten the restless leg problem so although I was so tired my legs were driving me nuts. I think I slept some but I really didn’t want to leave Kat alone. I’m not sure why I feel like I have to entertain everyone. She was so sweet and because she an ER nurse she was excited to see how things are done some place else. I’m glad she came with me!

I was home a little after 4. Ms. Leslie brought us an amazing dinner. I ate a few bites but my stomach was still bothering me. It’s almost 10 and I think I could eat it now but I won’t. It’s too late. I’ll just eat my peach! Yummmmm. Thank you Leslie. It really help to know my men are getting fed and I don’t have to worry about it.

My blessing for today was spending time and getting to know Kat better. Thanks Kat for keeping me company today! I hope you weren’t too board!

Be blessed,

Diana

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Well…

I just sat here and typed out my blog and hit post and it’s gone. I don’t even remember what I said. Something about being off all weekend and spending time with my family. How I’ve been feeling ok but not great. I mentioned that Florence had arrived and was more of a pussy cat than a lion. I spoke of my back yard that is now a swamp and my goofy Aussies, one who doesn’t care what it’s doing out because there something to chase up a tree and the other who won’t go out without a human and when she done she done.

It’s was short but not this short but I’m tired and I need to go to bed! I’ll catch you up tomorrow. I start a new drug and I’m really anxious about it. Back to not knowing again and sick to my stomach! I think a couple of G-Clear are in order and off to bed.

My blessing for today was spending time with Terry. It doesn’t happen very often!

Check back tomorrow!

Be blessed,

Diana

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It’s been a busy week.

Monday I was supposed to have a scan to see if the tumor was shrinking but when I got there it had never been ordered. I called my doctor and she said she wanted to wait until the end of all my treatments. I was very confused but ok. I had also scheduled and free workshop (if I could get there in time) called Look Good, Feel Better . It’s through the American Cancer Society I believe. I made it on time. 🙄 There were 6 of us and we were all given a bag with $200 + worth of high end, full size makeup. I got Oil of Olay moisturizer, IT under eye concealer, Clinique cream base make up, Mary Kay loose powder, L’Oreal blush, Maybelline mascara, Neutrogena eye shadow and a brow pencil, a lip liner, 2 lip sticks and 3 beautiful make up brushes. Now I don’t wear all that make up but it was fun to be pampered for a couple of hours. One lady taught us how to apply all the make up and the other lady showed us different ways to use a scarf or wrap for our balding heads. One lady who came in with nothing on her bald head walked out with a stunning wig. It really changed the way she looked! It was a nice diversion for a few hours.

⚠️warring⚠️

I’m not sure where to go with tonight’s post. It’s not been a very good week. I’m having some problems but I’m not sure how to share them. It’s been 8 days since my last chemo and I’m still not feeling good. I’m still taking meds for nausea, I’m super tired all the time, I can’t eat much and I’ve got a new hemorrhoid. They are a trio now. 💩 ing has become a task I dread but on top of all that, I’ve developed open sores in my girly area. So now it hurts to go pee pee. I’ll be calling my oncologist in the morning because there is no comfortable way for me to sit in a chair and I have to go back to work in the morning. It just kinda popped up this afternoon. I’m wondering if all my orifices needed popsicles. Oooooo just the word made me gag! I’ll see what the doctor has to say tomorrow. I don’t know how I’m going to work tomorrow. Sitting hurts but walking REALLY hurts! Ok enough about orifices!

Please be smart where this storm is concerned. If you live in NC, SC, GA and even VA and TN, be prepared for the worst and celebrate when it doesn’t happen. Yesterday we were on the back side of the storm with 3 to 5 inches possible and today we are on the front side of the storm with 8+ inches and extremely high winds expected. I’m a bit of a storm freak and I’m looking forward to it but I’m also very prepared. We have food for at least 7 days, 30 gallons of water for cooking, drinking and bathing. We have an awesome first aid kit, flash lights and batteries and a generator. The only things I’m worried about is all the stuff in our yard that could become airborne and the 100 year old Pin Oak trees that are in my neighbors yards. But I guess that’s why we buy insurance. So for goodness sake, be prepared and be smart!

My blessing for today was my nail and pedicure appointment that let me relax and unwind! Aaron always takes good care of me!

Be blessed,

Diana

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5 days later…

… and I’m still feeling sick. I’m a little surprised at how long this has taken to get out of my system this time. I guess as it builds up in my body, it hangs on longer. This time I’ve been so much more nauseous. To the point that for 2 days I just slept and drank lots of water! I’m also noticing the dehydration of my lips and my skin is worse! I can’t get enough to drink and lotion just soaks in and is gone. Also, my eyes are matted when I wake up. I’ve never had this much crap in my eyes and of course as I try to get it out of my lashes, I’m pulling them out. It’s always something but it hasn’t been anything really serious so I guess I’m good.

I had to work the last 2 days because there was no coverage. I will admit it wasn’t easy. I just wanted to sleep. I was able to take one of my nausea pills but not the one that makes me dizzy. So I did the best that I could. Yesterday was hard because it was a very busy day and I couldn’t get the nausea under control. I spent a lot of time in the bathroom. I did get to put my head down a couple of times but for the most part, I just had to do my job. Today was a really slow day. It was quiet and that was ok and I did take a 30 minute nap during my lunch.

Over the past 2 days I also got to visit with my cousin Bryan, his wife Julie and Maverick, the little boy they’re raising. I’m afraid I wasn’t very good company and I felt bad but they both understand. I stayed up as long as I could before I had to crash. I love you both! Maybe next time will be better!

Tonight we attended a Pet Life Celebration at our local Funeral Home. When our Cutter died over 5 years ago the people at Pet Pilgrimage helped us through a morning process we weren’t ready to face. Tonight we made a luminary in Cutter’s honor and everyone there released a dove balloon for the fur baby they were missing. It was beautiful!

Well, nothing much going on. I’ll continue to write when I can. If you’re not hearing from me either there’s nothing to write about or I can’t. If you have a question, please ask. Some days I feel like I’m rambling. Like today.

Terry and Rylee were off camping and learning preparedness things for unsavory situations and thank goodness with what’s hanging out in the Atlantic. Please don’t wait until you can’t help yourself to help yourself! I know people laugh at my family because we call ourselves Prepper’s, but when something bad happens we have thing in place to see us through. Things you might consider gathering would be a generator, saws, shovels, 1 gallons of water per day for each person/pet in your house, extra gas, an extra tank of propane, freeze dried food, extra dog and cat food in zip lock bags, peanut butter, jerky, canned goods, cereal, powered milk, dried fruit, power bars, tarps, rope, a camp stove, EXTRA prescription meds, solar cell phone chargers. AND don’t forget to fill up your bath tub and keep a bucket close by. Use this water to flush your toilet because you’re not going to want to keep that sitting in your HOT house any longer then it has too. It’s better to be safe than sorry!

My blessing these last couple of days was having family come visit and having them understand that I wasn’t at my best and it didn’t matter.

Be blessed,

Diana

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Last chemo double dose

I am so thankful to say this was the last double devil dose of chemo for me. I’m half way there! Each treatment has been different and unfortunately I think I’ll never eat a popsicle again! I was telling my nurses Denise and Madison that just the thought of eating the popsicles for the last 2 treatments was making me gag. I was kind of embarrassed to say anything but the feeling was so real. So much so that I even changed the flavor from Peach (my fav) to Strawberry this time to see if it made a difference. Just sitting here thinking about it makes me gag. Well Denise tells me there’s a name for this. It’s called Anticipatory Nausea. Ha, I’m not crazy. So I went to the web to see if she knew what she was talking about and it turns out she did. I Googled Anticipatory Nausea and the webpage http://www.curetoday.com came up. The information was really helpful and put my mind at ease knowing I’m not the only one. As a matter of fact it says 1 in 3 people experience Anticipatory Nausea and Vomiting (ANV). Go look it up. The mind is so freaking powerful. Just knowing what this drug was going to do to me made me sick before I would actually fill sick. Why the popsicle was the trigger, I have no idea. I just hope one day it goes away!

This is MY friend Heather. She was my chemo companion today. Ive known Heather since she was in middle school and love her like a daughter. She’s my son Joey’s best friend. It was good to spend time with her and catch up on her and her family. She a pretty special lady! Thanks Heather for taking care of me! I love you!

Coming home, I sat on the sofa and napped off and on. Our friend Michelle put together a meal train and tonight she was cooking dinner for my family. (I would have called out for Pizza delivery). Michelle brought a salad, dressing, bread, short ribs in gravy and Rosemary potatoes. OOOOOOHHHHHH and chocolate ice cream! I got my chocolate Heather! Thank you so much Michelle. I did eat a little because the food Nazi (Terry) told me I couldn’t have any ice cream and less I ate some protein. So I did!

It’s late, I’m not feeling so good. Another friend brought me some Hemp Oil and when I tried it today I wasn’t a fan of the taste but I’m going to give it a few squirts under my tongue before bed to see if it helps with the nausea. I might have to chase it with a beer! Good night and sweet dreams.

My blessing for today was of course Heathers company and the laughter. And the wonderful meal Michelle fixed us tonight! I love you both!

Be blessed,

Diana

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Oh boy…

It’s been a hot couple of days. The air conditioner went out at work on Friday and it didn’t take long before it was almost 90* in my office. I spent part of the day at my property and the rest of the day at the other local property where the AC worked. I did the same thing Saturday. Sunday and today I stayed at my property but it was so hot it was hard to do anything! I was grateful to have 2 fans but all I could do was sit in front of then. The AC repairman showed up today just as I was thinking about running away. I was feeling sick and just wanted some relief. ⚠️⚠️⚠️ I was miserable because I still had not gone to the bathroom for going on 6 days. Friday when I went to the oncologist office for my weekly blood work I asked for suggestions and the doctors assistant, Karen, told me to get Magnesium Citrate (aka poop juice) and drink 1/2 the bottle. So on Saturday evening I did that. I was up most of the night but there was never really any substantial action…if you know what I mean. A lot of the problem is the looming hemorrhoids and the thought of pushing! 😬 All weekend I’ve has small successes but I’m still eating so there’s way more going in then what’s coming out!

Now the reason I went into all of that was because it’s really not an ideal situation to be super hot and super constipated. It makes for one miserable me. At one point I just wanted to go home and drink the rest of the poop juice and wait. But I stuck it out. I even went to dinner with Terry, Rylee, Melanie, Joe and Lia. But before I left for dinner, I drank the rest of the poop juice and about 30 minutes ago… ☺️ there was a movement and I’m feeling better. I’m in my air conditioned house. I’m getting ready to go to bed and I’m hoping the juice will keep working! There’s still work to be done there!

Tomorrow is another chemo day so I’ll let you know how that goes. For tonight I have to say my blessings for today were Magnesium Citrate and time with family! 😉

Be blessed,

Diana

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